the tree

Im reading "Sex God" by Rob Bell and he got me thinking more about the
tree. There was nothing wrong with the fruit on that tree. In fact,
the opposite was true. It even says "Eve saw that the fruit was good
for food" It could have been any fruit, from any tree. There was
nothing special about the fruit, other than God said..."dont eat it".
It wasn't magical, it wasn't poisoned. Just forbidden.

So many things in life are this way. It would be nice, even easier
perhaps if everything we were forbidden to do, premarital sex, drugs,
indulgences, were always inherently bad, it would make even more sense
and we could understand WHY they are forbidden, and hopefully be able
to resist better. (I did only say "better")
But, it isn't that way. Some of the things he asks us to resist, to
rfure to do, are not necessarily bad for us...they are just forbidden.
I have some examples in mind but need to put the boys to bed...so nuff
fer now.
-z

Regrets

"live life to the fullest, dont have regrets"

i read this a couple weeks ago. is that possible? i'll post my thoughts later, but i wanted to see if anyone else had a view on this. comments please ladies and gentleman. i'll respond tonight or tomorrow.

New Meanings

I remember when I first wrote this poem what I was dealing with. I just happened to see it the other day and now it takes on a whole new light. And so I share with you.

another late night
no sleep at all
the lights turned off
floodgates burst again
wishing it could all become true
but never will it
but i still wish
upon a star
does that ever work?
once i thought it did
the shooting star
carries my wish
off into space
to lie forever
in the depths of darknesss
wallowed within my soul
like a fire inside water
never can be lit
but it doesnt stop the thoughts
i swim away
trying to escape
but cant
or i dont want to
i turn back to see you
your there
just beyond grasp
i reach but cannot touch
i cry but am not heard
i scream and no one cares
but they do
i hope
becuz when all things are lost
one thing remains
hope that someday
i will be seen

inspiration comes from all around, look and find it. you'll see where happiness lies.

wounds

this is just a small thing. the other day for no particular reason the verse "by his wounds we are healed" came to mind. And I thought...that's an odd thing really. Being healed by wounds. Usually we HEAL wounds. and while I understand what it means, that his suffering is what saves us...it's still a bit backward. We usually heal wounds, not get healed by them.

Its making me Hungry......

Krave.

Ever since I saw the title Zus gave this blog, I began to think about things I krave. Besides food, fun, money (and of course Dr. Pepper); what is it that I really want, that would make every day worth waking up to. It brings an interesting point to light, for the last couple months I have craved having friendships with Christians my own age, yes I have friends back home and elsewhere that are Christian friends and awesome, but here I haven't really met any that were my age. Needless to say I don't krave that anymore, long story. What it made me realize is that I needed a deeper relationship with God, I needed to long for my savior more than I longed for people I thought could help me come closer to him.

I krave to write like a genius. I krave to be a better athlete. I krave riches. I krave glory. I krave way to many things that end up making me krave more things that do me no good.

Kravings come and go, but I hope I never stop kraving for more of Him.

Light

I was thinking about light, and about heaven. Heaven and light, and
how in heaven we will need no Sun or Moon because HE will light
everything. John says that Jesus is "the light", he later says that we
are to "step into the light", that those who love darkness, who choose to live there, do not love God, because He is light.
Which brings me to my 1st question.
I WONDER IF IT MADE GOD SAD TO CREATE DARKNESS?
According to the order of creation, one of the first things he did was to make a separation between light and dark. He made darkness. But HE is light.
I wonder if it made him a little bit sad to create
something knowing that many people would choose the darkness instead of
the light.
Or how about the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, in Eden. Did He weep as he planted it, knowing one bite would put men at odds with him for thousands of years?
Ultimately one could ask this of ANY of His creations. Men have proven we are capable of loving literally anything and everything INSTEAD of Him. We worship nature, the stars, animals, other people, precious metals, money.

Do you suppose he felt any sorrow when he created any of those things, knowing what was intended to create joy in us, and draw us nearer to Him, would for some, have the opposite effect as we love Them more than we love
Him.
.-z

The Laughter of God

I like to think that God has a great laugh.
one of those contagious full laughs that big, burly, manly men with welcoming smiles have. The kind that fills your insides with smiles that eventually break out into your own laugh.
But today I read from proverbs ch1. It says in no uncertain terms that God laughs at those whom he warns but do not heed. With great compassion and care he corrects, instructs, disciplines, teaches. And in the end when some refuse to change, refuse to learn.
Pain.
And God will laugh.
He will not answer their pleas for help, no rescuing them from their folly. No. they suffer the tragic consequences of their choices in full. And he will laugh.
Please do not laugh at me...I do not want God to laugh at me.